"LIFE FULL OF LOVE WOULD BE A BLESS." - Me
"Power is being told you are not loved and not being destroyed by it." - Madonna
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
THE"→"INDICATES LYRICS FROM A CERTAIN SONG.


I’m just a girl
That likes a man that knows his right from wrong
One that will keep his loving at home
I’m just the kind of girl
Who likes to please her man the whole night long
But he has got to please me just as long
I want a man who
Who’s gonna treat me right
I need a man who’s gonna be with me every night
So I gotta
Find me a man
With sensitive eyes
One who understands
Love is stronger than pride
So I gotta
Find me a man
A sensitive mind
Not just any man
One of a kind..

Toni Braxton - Find me a man (via 2steps-here-2steps-there)

my-complexed-mind:

I miss you more than ever and I don’t know what to do
I wake up and I remember you in the morning
I am waiting for another day to be with you
The mirror doesn’t lie; I’ve changed so much…
I miss you

People come and go; life’s course seems wrong
It was so different when you were here

Yes, it was different when you were here

There’s nothing more difficult than living without you
Suffering while waiting to see you come
The coldness of my body asks about you
and I don’t know where you are
If you haven’t left I would have been so happy.

(Source: 2steps-here-2steps-there)


my-complexed-mind:

The Man I Love
Someday he will come along, the man I love.
And he will be big and strong, the man I love.
And when he comes my way, I’m going to try to do my best to make him stay.

my-complexed-mind:

The Man I Love

Someday he will come along, the man I love.

And he will be big and strong, the man I love.

And when he comes my way, I’m going to try to do my best to make him stay.

(Source: 2steps-here-2steps-there)


my-complexed-mind:

We were lovers, now we can’t even be friends.

I loved you; I cared about you, you knew, I thought you did because you told me you did too. But as it turns out, I meant nothing to you. 
I never thought I could ever feel such a thing for a man, especially for a man like you: nice, affectionate,  boring and complicated. Or so I thought. Now I found out that you’re only really affectionate. You’re not nice actually, you are an asshole; you’re not boring actually, you are lame. You’re also not complicated, you’re a desperate loser.
For a girl who is known as being smart, I feel stupid or I really am stupid. Even though I already knew you are capable of being an asshole, I still believed you were nice. I refused to believe you were a loser, because I believed you were just hurt.
For the first half of the year of 2013, I spent all my time being alone. I enjoyed my own company and I felt amazing. I was having a lot of fun - I had plans. Then I met you. You whom I told myself you were not going to mean anything to me. But as it turned out, you had made my world turned upside down.
How? Well, here I am 1 year later, spending the last half of the year of 2014 not just alone, but actually lonely. I feel horrible and I don’t even have plans for the future anymore.
I’m not just lost, I have completely lost my identity too or the person I thought I am. I don’t know how to deal with what I’m dealing with whatever it is I am dealing with right now - I can’t put a label.
You are the only person in this world I badly want to forget, yet still finding myself clinging to you and thinking about you. You’re not even worth it anymore and it’s just sad. I feel so shameful of myself. I used to have pride.
I still believe that things happen for a reason.
Everything’s really ironic sometimes. I thought we were lovers and friends but now we think of each others as enemies. I now think you are an asshole, you think I am evil.

my-complexed-mind:

We were lovers, now we can’t even be friends.

I loved you; I cared about you, you knew, I thought you did because you told me you did too. But as it turns out, I meant nothing to you. 

I never thought I could ever feel such a thing for a man, especially for a man like you: nice, affectionate,  boring and complicated. Or so I thought. Now I found out that you’re only really affectionate. You’re not nice actually, you are an asshole; you’re not boring actually, you are lame. You’re also not complicated, you’re a desperate loser.

For a girl who is known as being smart, I feel stupid or I really am stupid. Even though I already knew you are capable of being an asshole, I still believed you were nice. I refused to believe you were a loser, because I believed you were just hurt.

For the first half of the year of 2013, I spent all my time being alone. I enjoyed my own company and I felt amazing. I was having a lot of fun - I had plans. Then I met you. You whom I told myself you were not going to mean anything to me. But as it turned out, you had made my world turned upside down.

How? Well, here I am 1 year later, spending the last half of the year of 2014 not just alone, but actually lonely. I feel horrible and I don’t even have plans for the future anymore.

I’m not just lost, I have completely lost my identity too or the person I thought I am. I don’t know how to deal with what I’m dealing with whatever it is I am dealing with right now - I can’t put a label.

You are the only person in this world I badly want to forget, yet still finding myself clinging to you and thinking about you. You’re not even worth it anymore and it’s just sad. I feel so shameful of myself. I used to have pride.

I still believe that things happen for a reason.

Everything’s really ironic sometimes. I thought we were lovers and friends but now we think of each others as enemies. I now think you are an asshole, you think I am evil.

(Source: 2steps-here-2steps-there)


I loved you; I cared about you, you knew, I thought you did because you told me you did too. But as it turns out, I meant nothing to you.

I never thought I could ever feel such a thing for a man, especially for a man like you.

You’re not my ‘ideal’ man, then one day, you turned out to be perfect.

You were a man I never wanted, then I realise you’re what I needed.

I never thought I would beg to anyone, then I found myself lowering for you - begging to be just your friend.

After everything I have went through in life, I didn’t think I could ever let anyone hurt me again - but you left, I begged and now I am truly hurt again.


I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all.
Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait In Letters (via larmoyante)

(via ketchupisamazing)


“DO NOT BRING PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO WEIGHS YOU DOWN.” – Michelle Obama
 
I used to be the girl that felt like I needed to be friends with everybody. I pleased, I was nice all the time, I pretended to be happy and I pretended to be somebody I was not. 
I couldn’t put up with myself then. I couldn’t put up with all the lies and secrets I hid deep inside of me. I couldn’t see the real me anymore. I felt tired and I felt like I needed to go live in some place where nobody recognises me or know me so I could start finding myself again. But when you run you’ll always be running; when you hide you’ll always be hiding. 
I decided I need to be alone for a while. I stopped hanging around with all my “so called friends”. I’ve stopped socializing, I’ve stopped talking to people I normally would talk bullshit with. I kept distance from the people that drained me. And I started finding myself, who I really wanted to be and who I really was. I feel free and it feels right. 
I may be alone but I’d rather be alone. In this case at least I know who I am and what I want in life. I have a clear vision of my future. I have dreams and ambitions and I’m going to do whatever it takes to reach those goals. 
I have respect for myself. I know I am happy and I’m content. I don’t want and I don’t need anybody who weighs me down. I won’t put up with anyone who thinks acting stupid is “cool” and anyone who pretends. I have grown out of that.
What I’m trying to say here is that: don’t pretend to be somebody you are not, it’s not worth it. Don’t sacrifice yourself for anybody, it’s a wasted time of your life.

“DO NOT BRING PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO WEIGHS YOU DOWN.” – Michelle Obama

 

I used to be the girl that felt like I needed to be friends with everybody. I pleased, I was nice all the time, I pretended to be happy and I pretended to be somebody I was not.

I couldn’t put up with myself then. I couldn’t put up with all the lies and secrets I hid deep inside of me. I couldn’t see the real me anymore. I felt tired and I felt like I needed to go live in some place where nobody recognises me or know me so I could start finding myself again. But when you run you’ll always be running; when you hide you’ll always be hiding.

I decided I need to be alone for a while. I stopped hanging around with all my “so called friends”. I’ve stopped socializing, I’ve stopped talking to people I normally would talk bullshit with. I kept distance from the people that drained me. And I started finding myself, who I really wanted to be and who I really was. I feel free and it feels right.

I may be alone but I’d rather be alone. In this case at least I know who I am and what I want in life. I have a clear vision of my future. I have dreams and ambitions and I’m going to do whatever it takes to reach those goals.

I have respect for myself. I know I am happy and I’m content. I don’t want and I don’t need anybody who weighs me down. I won’t put up with anyone who thinks acting stupid is “cool” and anyone who pretends. I have grown out of that.

What I’m trying to say here is that: don’t pretend to be somebody you are not, it’s not worth it. Don’t sacrifice yourself for anybody, it’s a wasted time of your life.


I turned out to be a bad person.

I turned out to be a bad person.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~♥♥♥~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We mistake sex for romance. Guys are taught that pushing a girl up against a wall is romance. Sex is easy; you can do it with anyone, yourself, with batteries. Romance is when someone you like walks into a room and they take your breath away. Romance is when two people are dancing and they fit together perfectly. Romance is when two people are walking next to each other and all of a sudden they find themselves holding hands, and they don’t know how that happened.

John C. Moffi


Well it’s not much of a relationship, but I’m sort of attached to it.

Well it’s not much of a relationship, but I’m sort of attached to it.


At words poetic I’m so pathetic that I always have found it best instead of getting it off my chest to let them rest, unexpressed.

At words poetic I’m so pathetic that I always have found it best instead of getting it off my chest to let them rest, unexpressed.


That look in his eyes…

That look in his eyes…


Having the courage to talk to someone who you may be scared to talk to may open up doors that you never imagined would be open for you, sometimes we must be willing to take risks like talking to someone that we never knew would talk to us, and in turn we may find out that they have been the ones that have been waiting to talk to you. Life requires us at times to be more aggressive than we would normally like to be.

Instead of running from life, and the uncomfortable situations that we may expose ourselves to, it is important that we make our self comfortable in being in uncomfortable situations, and that we utilize the ability to take risks in our lives, because it is these types of situations that allow us to grow exponentially. We must be willing to talk to the people who we don’t think will talk to us, and choose to go after experiences that we are uncertain about as well.


AT LAST! MY LOVE HAS COME ALONG! MY LONELY DAYS ARE OVER!?
xx

AT LAST! MY LOVE HAS COME ALONG! MY LONELY DAYS ARE OVER!?


xx


I feel so drained by people and their BULLSHIT! Seriously all, get out and get a breath of air! xx

I feel so drained by people and their BULLSHIT! Seriously all, get out and get a breath of air!

xx

sleepy themes