“DO NOT BRING PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO WEIGHS YOU DOWN.” – Michelle Obama
I used to be the girl that felt like I needed to be friends with everybody. I pleased, I was nice all the time, I pretended to be happy and I pretended to be somebody I was not.
I couldn’t put up with myself then. I couldn’t put up with all the lies and secrets I hid deep inside of me. I couldn’t see the real me anymore. I felt tired and I felt like I needed to go live in some place where nobody recognises me or know me so I could start finding myself again. But when you run you’ll always be running; when you hide you’ll always be hiding.
I decided I need to be alone for a while. I stopped hanging around with all my “so called friends”. I’ve stopped socializing, I’ve stopped talking to people I normally would talk bullshit with. I kept distance from the people that drained me. And I started finding myself, who I really wanted to be and who I really was. I feel free and it feels right.
I may be alone but I’d rather be alone. In this case at least I know who I am and what I want in life. I have a clear vision of my future. I have dreams and ambitions and I’m going to do whatever it takes to reach those goals.
I have respect for myself. I know I am happy and I’m content. I don’t want and I don’t need anybody who weighs me down. I won’t put up with anyone who thinks acting stupid is “cool” and anyone who pretends. I have grown out of that.
What I’m trying to say here is that: don’t pretend to be somebody you are not, it’s not worth it. Don’t sacrifice yourself for anybody, it’s a wasted time of your life.
“We mistake sex for romance. Guys are taught that pushing a girl up against a wall is romance. Sex is easy; you can do it with anyone, yourself, with batteries. Romance is when someone you like walks into a room and they take your breath away. Romance is when two people are dancing and they fit together perfectly. Romance is when two people are walking next to each other and all of a sudden they find themselves holding hands, and they don’t know how that happened.”
— John C. Moffi
At words poetic I’m so pathetic that I always have found it best instead of getting it off my chest to let them rest, unexpressed.
Having the courage to talk to someone who you may be scared to talk to may open up doors that you never imagined would be open for you, sometimes we must be willing to take risks like talking to someone that we never knew would talk to us, and in turn we may find out that they have been the ones that have been waiting to talk to you. Life requires us at times to be more aggressive than we would normally like to be.
Instead of running from life, and the uncomfortable situations that we may expose ourselves to, it is important that we make our self comfortable in being in uncomfortable situations, and that we utilize the ability to take risks in our lives, because it is these types of situations that allow us to grow exponentially. We must be willing to talk to the people who we don’t think will talk to us, and choose to go after experiences that we are uncertain about as well.